Think what you want, not what you fear. There is a story behind this quote. The year was probably around 2008. I discovered about a 1 cm lump on my body. I first thought it was a lymph node. It was not tender. A few weeks later it had doubled in size so I made an appointment with my doctor. The night before the appointment, I noticed my mind was preoccupied with concern that it was going to be cancer. Though I was no longer working, due to symptoms of multiple sclerosis, my profession was that of a radiation therapist. I worked with cancer patients. And that is where my mind took me. Cancer. As I closed my eyes to sleep, I was startled awake with a gentle whisper in my right ear. I heard and felt this whisper. It said, “Think what you want, not what you fear.” I was very startled. I knew in that moment that I was being directly spoken to from a higher place. In an instant I was standing in front of the bathroom mirror staring at myself, almost stunned with what I heard and felt. So I looked at myself again and asked what did I want? I spoke my answer out loud. “I want for the doctor to tell me that it is nothing serious and something that antibiotics with take care of.” The next day, the doctor tells me that it was just a blocked duct and that antibiotics would take care of it. I walked out of there standing tall. I spoke what I wanted without any fear attached, and that is what I received. So I stopped at the pharmacy on the way home and started treatment right away. But at 6:00pm that night, my doctor calls. He apologized for having me pay for the antibiotics, but suggested that I stop taking it. After further research he said that I was going to require surgery. But still, he believed it to be a blocked duct. Well two weeks passed before I was able to see the surgeon. I wasn’t in fear of cancer any longer, but I was disappointed. By the time of my appointment, this mass had grown to about a 4 cm ball. I’ll go ahead and share. If I were a boy, it could have been a testicle. And by then, it was painful. What did I want? I had wanted for the doctor to treat and cure this with antibiotics. I started thinking that maybe I had thought too small by putting my faith in the doctor and his medicine. Maybe I needed to think bigger and put my faith in God and His miracles. So……..the morning of my appointment, I dropped to my knees and prayed. My prayer was a mantra. “Through Spirit I am healthy and whole. This mass no longer serves me.” I repeated this. Over and over. “Through Spirit I am healthy and whole. This mass no longer serves me.” I went into a deep state of mediation. I don’t remember if I kept speaking out loud or if the words were just repeating in my mind. But my awareness suddenly shifted. I felt something. In an instant, in that instant, the mass disappeared. It was gone. Think what you want, not what you fear. This was a turning point in my faith and understanding of how powerful our thoughts are. I live with this quote. It is a gentle reminder when I I sense fear taking over. What do you want? What are the longings in your heart? Know what you want. Be very clear with what that is. Fear is nothing more than the ego doing its job to keep you safe. It’s not safe to step into the unknown. Even when the known and familiar isn’t comfortable. At least with the known, you know what to expect. But doing the same thing over and over the same way holds you back. What do you really want? Let’s start a conversation there.

Aloha. Who am I to offer a way through and out of suffering? I’ve asked myself that question many times? Who am I to help you? And why do I want to make that commitment, now? To be honest, it doesn’t feel like an option. I’ve tried to say no to the nudges that put me on this path, but it feels like something I must offer. We all have stories and I have many. I have lived a blessed life. And I have lost plenty. I have had lots of disappointments and illness. I have been severely disabled with multiple sclerosis. I have been sexually and emotionally abused. But the questions I’ve learned to ask are, why did I receive this experience? How did I create it? And how do I un-create for a better tomorrow? I’ve had multiple events that I labeled as wake up calls. But each time I’d fall back into the deep sleep of unconsciousness where I’d become the victim again and again of life happening to me. Sound familiar? My last wake up call was in 2021, being diagnosed with worsening dementia. I was diagnosed with declining cognitive functions in 1993, secondary to MS. I learned to live with it using lots of post-it notes and reminders. But in 2021 I was having trouble hiding how bad it was getting. I was shocked to see how poorly I did on the testing and the prognosis was to expect it to continue worsening. My world was falling apart, as I believed this story to be true. But then I asked my questions and got to the one asking, how do I uncreate this? I wanted for the rest of my life to be more this. Little did I know in that moment, that 2bmore was on my horizon. I believe in ask and ye shall receive. Those are powerful words of Truth, not to be underestimated. It is important to understand that we are always asking and we are always receiving. So when we don’t appreciate or want what we have or what we have become, maybe we simply need to learn a better way of asking. Sickness and suffering are projections of and a reflection of a world absent of God’s purest light. This is a world absent of our own soul’s purest light. The veils are not lifted. The lens to our souls are imperfect. And so we suffer. It is our suffering though that opens us up for the healing and to the fullest expression of God’s love. There are laws of God, of nature and of this universal energy that we simply can not get around. Giving and Receiving are the same. Projection and Reflection are the same. So when we react to life, and react with emotions of grief, anger, lack, fear and suffering in all forms, it is that energy that we offer and that is given back to us in another form and experience. This is a form of asking and receiving. So there is value in understanding that gratitude and abundance share the same frequencies of energy, as do fear and lack. We see through a veil of insecurities that we have learned, been taught and that we even teach to others. We teach what we know and believe. We experience what we know and believe. I want for you to get to know me. I want for you to trust me. Life has prepared me for this. 2bmore has 3 paths. They are separate, yet they blend. Health and Wellness Energy Diagnostics Ministries I am not a therapist for mental health. I was a therapist! But in the field of radiation oncology. I have a medical background, but I am someone who simply cares. I was shown a path to becoming whole. I learned tools and techniques for the sole purpose of my own healing, and I want to simply share them with you. And as I continue to grow and heal, I am continuing to learn more tools and techniques so to offer continued growth and healing for you. Life doesn’t happen to us. It happens through us. And the only thing that needs to change is, your mind. It was only in June of this year, 2024, that ministries was added as its own pathway. While I was creating the pages of my website, in my mind, a clear image appeared for 2bmore Ministries. I instantly looked at God and said, Really!!???! You want for me to minister? I do not fully understand what this will mean in its entirety. For now, as I journal and as I share spiritual truth as I know it, I will be adding scripture that supports what I teach. I was raised in church but quit going regularly when I was a young adult. I’ve visited many churches over the years but often felt like an imposter. I didn’t believe everything they wanted for me to believe. Growing up in church, I watched the elders surrender to their suffering, but as they claimed this suffering to be the Will of God. Why would God want for us to suffer? He allows it. The Bible teaches that we will suffer. But maybe it isn’t the suffering we are supposed to give our surrender. God is in my heart. Jesus is someone I call by name and have conversations. But I have struggled with organized religion and have been seeking the Spiritual Truth in mine. I am not about wanting to convert anyone to my religion or wanting to cause anyone to defend theirs. I’m simply sharing my stories. A few months ago, at a moment of feeling the absence of spiritual women in my life and missing being part of a close group of women, I spoke out loud saying, “God, I really want a group of spiritual women in my life again.” And that is all I said. I had been part of mediation groups for years but over time they simply fizzled out. I live on a small island, and over the past 5 years, my old group of friends simply fizzled out as well. I have lots of friends and family here, but I wanted something more. A few days later I was invited to a 3 day Women’s Retreat to be held at a facility on Kilauea, an active volcano on the island. Without hesitation, I said YES! and praised the grace and gratitude of God’s quick answer. But in humor I questioned if I, the imposter, was going to be sacrificed to the volcano. I found it curious that this group of women God had gifted, are the women of a small Hawaiian church in one of the oldest villages in Hawaii. God knows my heart and knows the conflict I have with religion. But I surrendered to His guidance. I knew a few of the women going so I was certain to enjoy sharing this time and space with them. As the idea of a women’s retreat grew, it became a Women’s Conference for the Hawaiian Church. Women came from other islands and the small group of 10-15 grew closer to 50. I’m Spiritual with Christian teachings for Truth, but again …the dogma of religion made a part of me anxious and reminded me that I was an imposter. Another part of me was excited, with the mindset to expect the unexpected. That’s the part that helped me to walk into the conference. Let me tell you, these women Know God! And I now drive an hour every Sunday to be with them and to share in God’s message as I seek Truth in scripture. I don’t believe everything I read in the Bible to be Spiritual Truth. There are stories. But I simply do not need for anyone to believe as I do. And that is okay. I see everyone and everything as my reflection, and being made in the image and likeness of God, an extension of the Source of Creation, I am Light. I am Love. I am Powerful. We are powerful. And my journey continues. 2bmore is about change. It is about living life with less and less suffering. I was taught that the experience of suffering provides the fullest expression of God’s Love, as it is a time to be closer to God. I learned that surrendering is a powerful act of faith, and an action that must be honored. So true surrender returns us to God, where suffering is impossible. And I believe this to be possible while still in the flesh. We accepted suffering to be part of the human experience. But God and Bible also tells us that Knowledge will increase! Truth is expanding. And for something to be Truth, It must be True 100% of the time. There are no exceptions. And so I am filtering through the stories of my religion to seek the spiritual truth that I live and teach, and I want to share that journey with anyone who resonates. Jesus said that we can do the same as He. Think about that. I believe He meant it. That is what I resonate with and that is what excites me, as I take on the end of suffering, as a new paradigm.